It has now been almost 8 weeks since I became redundant and unemployed. Three of those weeks were spent relaxing in the Floridian sunshine relishing the fact that I wasn't going to have that 'first day back at work' feeling.Three weeks have passed. Three weeks of school runs, housework, applying for jobs and generally pottering about. Despite all of this I dont feel like I've achieved anything and I'm getting very bored.
Even the two days for four weeks teaching I was asked to do isn't helping much. It's a couple of days out where I feel useful to some extent but without the responsibility. I turn up, teach and then go home. The organisation and stress belongs to someone else now. I never realised how much I enjoyed the stress of work.
I have a genetic flaw which makes me eat when bored, stressed or unwell. I have developed boredom belly. Not ideal having just put on half a stone in Florida. I haven't a hope in hell chance of wearing my smart trouser suit should I be offered an interview, but the way things are going, that isn't going to be anytime soon. I can't afford new clothes, I'm scrounging off the state - or rather my husband as he keeps reminding me!
I have little or no structure in my life now. It's killing me. I'm a list maker, bottle straightener, everything in its place and squared off person. I dont do 'laid back' or 'when I get around to it'. I do things as soon as they need doing.
There are three boxes of plants to put into the garden I bought a week ago. There are still sticky fingerprints on the patio doors and my new Wii Fit Plus hasn't been out the box yet.
I need to get a grip. Kick myself up the backside. Start making lists again.
Tomorrow is day one. I have a plan. Im going to make myself a timetable.
With or without a job I'm going to be busy doing something useful.
Oh dear oh dear you are in a bad way. Yes sounds like 'a plan' may be the answer, goals and all that.Walk the legs off the dogs to shift the extra pounds!
ReplyDeleteGood for you. Look forward to reading about your progress. :-)
ReplyDeleteNot sure about the need back in your neck of the woods, but over here in Seattle, people pay good money to have a "consultant" help them organize their lives, help them tidy up their belongings and down size their stuff. You sound like you have all the qualities to do that, so I'd set yourself up, think of a good name, build your website and get going. What are you waiting for.
ReplyDeleteAll that energy going to waste - its tragic. Don't ever let go of it.
ReplyDeleteHope you've managed to get your list compiled by now and are getting back into the groove a bit more....it must be difficult suddenly finding yourself without the structure of work, but self discipline is all it takes to get your new life in order so you can never find a second to be bored.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you can find something productive to do. You sound like a real go-getter. :-)I am Fickle Cattle.
ReplyDeleteI understand how you are feeling. I used to have a job where I was paid to do nothing. I got very depressed! You could think about volunteering? I must admit that the volunteer guiding has turned my life around and I'm ever so grateful for it!We often moan about work but I think most of us need to structure of it. Good luck with whatever you do!
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